Wednesday 24 August 2011

Never Let You Go



If you hide, I'll seek for you . If you lost , I search for you . If you leave, I'll wait for you. If they try to take you away  from me , I'll fight for you . Cause I never want  to lose someone I love .
I know you life can go on without me , that you can be happy withou me , that you can survive without me . But even if you turn me away , I will still choose to stay with you and be your sweetest stranger forever .
When I say I love you , please believe it's true . When I say forever now I'll never leave you . When I say goodbye promise me you won't cry . Cause the day I'll be saying that would be the day I die .
I promise to be there when you need me, I promise to hug you tight when you're lonely, I promise to wipe your tears when they fall and i promise to keep you , not for the rest of my life but for the rest of yours.
I miss U when there's no reason to , how much more if there was ? I miss U when we talk , how much more if we don't? I miss U after we're together , how much more if I see U never ? I love U know , how much more later ?
When I go to heaven and you're not there , I wait for you by the golden stair . If you're not there by jugdement day , I know u went the other way . And to prove my love is true , I'd go to hell to be with you .
I have searched in places , I've waited for years , I've taken all the chances , I've cried so many tears , I've seen so many faces , I've hid a lot of fears until my heart stop searching cause you're already here .
I'm holding on to the thought that you're not mine . I'm going to look u in the eye , smile and say , "You're not mine " Then , I'll walk away , turn around at the last moment and say " but I wish you're were " .
H-R-T ? Why would you add to these letters ? EA or U ? EA you get heart , U you get hurt . Now , what would you pick ? Well , I would pick U because it better to get hurt than have a heart without you .
When I was walking alone , I wish I can reach the end of the road. But when you walked with me , I wished the road would never end because I would rather be lost with you than reach the end without you .
You're all I need beside me , girl . You're all I need to turn my world . You're all I need inside my heart . You're all  I need when we're apart . All I need is you to believe all that I need is you.
I want to scream , I want to shout , I want to have faith and never doubt . I want to bend , I want to break , to sleep and never wake , to break down wall and to escape , be alone and hide my face. I want to feel , I want to touch , I want to stop wanting you so much ..
I love you but you make me cry , you hurt me and make me feel stupid . But you know why I hold on ? Cause I know I'll be crying harder , get hurt even more and feel dumber if I ever let you go .
I wish you were with me so I can tell you directly how much you mean to me . I hold you tight and I hug you near my heart so that you can hear what it's trying to whisper , "you're the reason why I'm beating " .
I had dream last night . You were there . I tried to hide you but they came to take you . I tried to wake myself up to stop the pain , I never did. but I want you to know , I died fighting .
If my heart break  into a million pieces, I want you to have every bit of it. Then I’ll ask you to scatter them across the sky. There they’ll turn into stars so everyone could see how much I love you. 

Thursday 18 August 2011

Please don't leave me ..

 
                                                              Noor Imani Mutiara Binti Rusli
                                                                             14
                                                                      TMS
                                                                    5 . 11 . 1997

ha... nampak kn kawan aku kat atas tu.. dulu awek aku but skang jadi kawan yang aku paling rapat..
petang tadi baru jumpa die.. saja lepak lepak kat taman n ajar die MT .. pastu die ade bawak buku die something  like diari lah.. aku slalu tengok die tulis dalam buku tu.. tapi die tak bagi aku bace konfirm ade secret.. but tadi aku merayu kat die n die bagi.. after aku bace aku nangis depan die.. die ade tulis dalam buku tu yang die tak kn hidup lame.. die ade penyakit.. die ade tulis yg penyakit die dah teruk tapi die tak nak ckp die ade penyakit ape.. Imani please jangan tinggalkn aku.. kalau kau takde nnt sape nak lepak ngn aku kat taman. muka lawa sape lagi aku nak tengok.. nnt takde sape aku nak ajar mt lagi.. nnt takda sape nak gembira kn aku walaupun kau bukan milik aku.. weyh.. please la jangan tinggalkn aku.. aku sayang kau macam adik aku sendiri weyh.. kalau kau takda nnt sape lagi nak buat aku selalu tergelak dengan lawak kau... dengan sape lagi aku nak luahkn perasaan aku kat kau.. nnt sape nak jadi BFF aku bile kau dah tak de nanti..aku tau kau kuat untuk menahan rasa sakit yg kau alami tu.. kau jgn ckp bukan bukan tau.. aku akan selalu doakn kau supaya kau hidup lame lagi weyh..